The First

Ok so this is the first of I'm sure many blogs to come. Though I'm not really sure where to start I guess the best place is at the beginning. My name is Courtney and I have some issues lol. To me writing blogs and journals help me express myself. If you don't like what I write...don't read my blog. It's as simple as that. Some of the things I write about aren't pretty...but that's my life and I feel like telling the story of it. So are you ready?
  So I'm still not talking to my father. At this point in my mind he is dead and no longer exists. I know that sounds super harsh but if you knew the him that I know trust me you would understand. He is the type of father that cares only about him self and his new wife. This never really surprised me since he has always been the type of person that only ever cared when it benefited him. For years now I have tried to ignore his bullcrap and just smile threw it but I just can't do it any more. 20 years of being treated like dirt is enough for me. I stopped letting him beat the shit out of us and I'm definitely  not going to put up with emotional abuse too. So as of last week when he threatened my life...Yeah what kind of father really threatens their own kid? Like most parents would never dream of something even hurting their kids let alone being the ones saying they are gonna do it....and not even just hurt...kill...like really? And people wonder why I'm so fucked up lol. This man causes me to need therapy lol. Well I'm off to bed. Don't worry there will be more later
Till then....try to stay sane