How my move has been going.....

So about 2 months ago I moved from my town of the past 7 years back to Delaware(where I'm actually from)....Not by choice mind you. See a couple months ago I got laid off and decided that since I had worked my ass off for the past year I was going to take some time to my self. And still staying with my mom I could do that. However while on vacation in of course Delaware my mom calls and tells me she put her two weeks notice in at work. With no job and no money saved up I couldn't get my own place and had to come along....this is how its going so far.
 Theses people are driving me CRAZY! I have no space to my self. Right now we are living with my grandmother and her roommate in her 3 bedroom house. Yes folks that does mean I am sharing a bedroom with my mother. Could life get any worse? Of course it could. Delaware is a nice place to come and visit and yes I love being able to see my family when ever I want but there is nothing here. People here complain day in and out about how they hate their jobs. You know why they complain and don't quit? Cause if they quit it could take them 2 years to find a new one! Yeah it took my brother two and a half years to find a new job after being laid off. There's just nothing here. People never leave so nothing really opens up. And of course my grandmother is on my case about it. Like I understand that she's stressed having two more people to feed and everything but OMG lady chill out I'm trying. Trust me I want a job lol. My idea of a good time is NOT sitting home all day. I feel sooo lazy I can't stand it. And she just doesn't let up. Its like I can only take so much lol. I wish I could just run away. I've thought about it. But no I got some stuff I gotta handle here and then I'm outta here. I don't know how I'm gonna do it but I'm going back to North Carolina. I miss my friends and my life ya know. Its kinda funny how you can complain about the things in your life and then everything changes and you realize how lucky you were. I mean I'm one of those people. I used to complain about how my life sucked so bad and blah blah blah....now I miss it and I would do anything to have that back...well some of it lol. Some of the new things in my life are kinda awesome right now lol.
 Well that's it for tonight. Of course I'll be back to share again and give everyone a glimpse of...ME! <3

The First

Ok so this is the first of I'm sure many blogs to come. Though I'm not really sure where to start I guess the best place is at the beginning. My name is Courtney and I have some issues lol. To me writing blogs and journals help me express myself. If you don't like what I write...don't read my blog. It's as simple as that. Some of the things I write about aren't pretty...but that's my life and I feel like telling the story of it. So are you ready?
  So I'm still not talking to my father. At this point in my mind he is dead and no longer exists. I know that sounds super harsh but if you knew the him that I know trust me you would understand. He is the type of father that cares only about him self and his new wife. This never really surprised me since he has always been the type of person that only ever cared when it benefited him. For years now I have tried to ignore his bullcrap and just smile threw it but I just can't do it any more. 20 years of being treated like dirt is enough for me. I stopped letting him beat the shit out of us and I'm definitely  not going to put up with emotional abuse too. So as of last week when he threatened my life...Yeah what kind of father really threatens their own kid? Like most parents would never dream of something even hurting their kids let alone being the ones saying they are gonna do it....and not even just hurt...kill...like really? And people wonder why I'm so fucked up lol. This man causes me to need therapy lol. Well I'm off to bed. Don't worry there will be more later
Till then....try to stay sane